Posted by: estheramy | May 18, 2012

Why we are going to John of God

I’m Esther, and my mom is Amy, and in two and a half weeks we are leaving Chicago for Abadiana, Brazil to go see John of God.  I thought this blog would be a great way to document our journey. It was my idea to take this trip… my mom is not particuarly looking forward to it.  She’s very worried about all of the things that can go wrong.  But since there is no other person in the world that I would rather have with me for a trip such as this – well, she’s stuck with me!  And I think she’ll feel much better once we are actually there.  I hope so anyway!  I promised her that if we arrive and it’s absolutely horrible, we’ll just go to Rio De Janero for the rest of our two week stay.  She feels better now that we have this Plan B.

My story goes back to 1994, when I was originally diagnosed with “borderline malignent ovarian cancer” at age 23.  I was very fortunate in that it was completely cured (with the help of a total hysterectomy) and assured by my doctors that the chance of recurrance was very slim. Well you can probably guess what happened.  Sixteen and a half years later, in the fall of 2010, it reoccured.  This time, it came back on my sacrum – weird, I know – how does ovarian cancer reoccur on the tail bone?  How does a person even have a reocurrance of ovarian cancer when they have no ovaries? I had surgery in October, 2010, and they removed as much of the cancer as they could… but let me know that they were not able to remove everything. I did radiation for six weeks, as the doctors were hopeful this would eliminate anything that remained.  Life resumed back to normal, and I hoped that would be the last of my cancer saga.  Unfortunately, I was wrong.  In February of this year, when my CA125 test came back elevated, my world was again turned upside down. I have gone to the Mayo clinic, the University of Chicago, and consulted with five oncologists, medical and gynecological, and nobody feels that it is resectable this time. I’ve also been told that chemotherapy does not typically work with this type of cancer (it’s still the borderline cancer but it’s now a more aggressive version). Since that doesn’t leave me many options, and truth be told, they are telling me it’s likely not curable (we’ll just try to keep it at bay as long as possible… until hopefully there is a chemo therapy treatment that works with this type of cancer), I have decided to venture to John of God for healing.

Why John of God? I know this is a question many are wondering. My mom asked why I can’t just go talk to a Rabbi. I really don’t know exactly why I feel this draw to go to John of God, it’s hard for me to explain, but I just do.  Maybe it’s because there was an Oprah show on John of God, and I have always loved Oprah’s topics (most of them anyway).  I did find it absolutely facinating, as this was the first I heard of John of God and the Casa.  Well I know there are skeptics, and of course there is no guarantee to come back “cured.”  But what the heck – why not go?  This is what I asked myself for the month or so mulling it over before we booked the guide and the flights.  I will miss my 9 year old children (N and B) terribly, I have never been away from them for more than one week.  There is no way around this, I’m just going to miss my family. Thank goodness for Skype. Thankfully, I have an incredibly competent husband who I know will hold down the fort, so this gives me great peace of mind. Yeah, the three of them will be just fine without me.  Besides this, I will be extremely behind with work when I return, and there is no way around this too.  But thankfully, I also have an extremely competent business partner who will also hold down the fort.  Really, at this point, what do I have to lose?  Doctors are telling me I will likely not be cured, so a place of Spiritual Healing for two weeks is where I need to be.  I am looking at this trip as something positive, something that will help me.  I believe that something positive WILL come out of this trip. Probably many positive things. We surely will meet many interesting people from all over the world, and have experiences that we would not have anywhere else. It’s going to be an Excellent Adventure!



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